The fact is simple: Christianity is not a common life. The Christian life is specific. It is the life of God fused into a human being.
Every Christian is special to God. When God accepts you into His family, He gives you exactly the same privileges He has given to Jesus Christ. In fact, God makes you one with Jesus to the extent that the devils cannot differentiate between you and Christ. Jesus said “I am the vine, ye are the branches.”
This state of oneness with Christ is the state of Christhood, and it is available to all Christians, as many as walk in the Light.
Every Christian is special to God because every Christian can attain to Christhood.
Stop depending on the faith of your pastor. Grow up into your own Christhood, for you too are special to God.